Wow! I had no idea how I was going to come out of yesterday. I wasn't sad but I was very contemplative and indecisive on many fronts. One thing I do know for sure, my daughter cannot have a new kitten that she keeps asking for! Last week it was a puppy. The other thing I know for sure I do not want: the distant past in my present or future. Whew!
Last night, I prayed for inspiration. Knees bent, hands together, head bowed, tears flowing. A month ago, I was sure of certain things, and as I learn more I'm disenchanted. That seems to be a pattern with me. If I sign up for patchouli and sandalwood, I don't expect chocolate. And I've been getting chocolate. You know? Then I give chocolate some thought. A fair chance. Then it turns me off. Bores me. (And I don't even like chocolate that much! Unless it's German Chocolate ice cream or cake) And then I'm back at square one. Looking for patchouli and sandalwood.
And then, I think I've found it again! Patchouli and sandalwood. I wallow in it, I soak in it, I inhale it. I live in it and for it. I love it. I think I have a life long supply of it. Then.. it goes away. And I want it back. It was good. I ask and I ask. I lure it back. It returns. Then it goes away again. Not meant for me, I guess. But I want it back. It was good. Very good. I miss it.
So, after asking and asking and never getting it back again. I give up! And I don't want chocolate. And I don't want just Patchouli and Sandalwood anymore either! I want it all ....... Rose, Anise, Vervaine, Fennel, Periwinkle, Neroli, Spearmint, Ginger, Jasmine, Lavender, Lemon Verbena, Palmarosa, Vanilla, Ylang Ylang, Chamomile, Frankincense, Myrrh, Lemon Balm, Bergamot..
You know? Peace. Health. Money. Love. The works!
The essential fragrances of these don't mind time. Or that I change my mind or the reasons why. I am allowing myself to accept these new energies separately and blended. I visualize and inhale these, my old ways and thoughts and dreams are ended. I am eager for the challenge of the new dream! Enter Jasmine and Rose; and all other sweet scents of Spring!
Good-bye. Good-bye. Good-bye. Old Dreams. Poof! Good-bye.
Hello! New body, New spirit, New soul! New life.